I am still alive! Hurrah!
It's been 9 days since I last blogged, and 3 since I last puked. I've done very little except keep going. People have visited me and that's been fantastic, but the thought alone of sitting at the computer made me retch. Literally.
But I'm back. There's a steady improvement, and besides, there's a wedding today, and I've been looking forward to it for months. I'm going to go and see how long I last.
Last weekend I had this urge to call a friend who I haven't seen in years. It's been about 6 years since I saw L in the flesh, and 3 years since I spoke to her on the phone. I wasn't even sure she'd want me getting in touch after so long...
... but I called her mum anyway, and got her new number. Turns out she's also been thinking of me, and wanted to call but had no number for me. Weird, eh. And then, even more weirdly, it turns out L knows a bit about cancer and in particular, a diet that is supposed to help fight it. She's coming over to see me next week and bringing the book with her. Fab.
I needed to get back on track. I've been a bit down and increasingly irritated at being stuck in all the time, not through lack of wanting to do something/go somewhere, but from a real, physical exhaustion, nausea, and general bodily discomfort. Going out was hellish because my body failed to regulate its temperature and I'd go from cold sweat and goose-bumps to burning up and back again in a ten minute cycle. Horrid.
My head was also getting lost in negative thinking, allowing fear to take over. The translation work came just at the right time, and I managed it even though blogging has been nigh on impossible. It forced my mind to think of other, non-cancerous things. I had a break from thinking it about it at all.
So things are good. I'm healing, and actually going to a wedding - did I mention that I'm going to a wedding??!! (Outside... woo hoo! People in large numbers... Whey hey!)
Here's some pics to sign off with:
First up - my back and the lovely burn from the RT - let's hope it's done a good job on the old tumour too! This was taken last week. Thanks to everyone who came and rubbed cream into it for me!
And then some lovely ones, also taken by the little one - she's really getting into her photography thanks to Amanda!