Am too excited!
Am sitting here in my jodhpurs!!!
After a rather dodgy start to the day, I thought I'd best scrape myself up and do something positive. So I rang the riding school, had a lovely chat, and arranged a ride.
And then the postman delivered a parcel from Spain, and I cried again. This time in a good way. Desi sent me a shoe-box full of love: a book - even found it in English for me - called The Monk who sold his Ferrari (to aid in my current quest for spiritual development in order to live better, longer, and heal myself with medical help), and a beautiful silver pouch filled with lovely little things; incense, a unicorn (I've been hooked on unicorns since birth!), and a healing charm, a letter, candles, and a photograph...
Yesterday one of the mums from school brought me a video and book on Yoga because I said I wanted to have a go at learning it, to try to restore balance and health. How lovely is that? People are lovely you know. I hadn't realised quite how lovely they can be - it's a shame it's taken this turn of events to teach me that really. But better late than never, eh.
Despite any misgivings I may have felt, this afternoon I had the most wonderful half hour riding lesson. Not only did I cope physically (although half an hour was about right), I also managed to retain all that knowledge I gained in Spain, and am improving massively! Managed to keep Murphy out into the corners, did rather round shaped circles (still some pretty crappy ones as well I must admit!), and had a lovely long canter round the school. I felt so relaxed in the saddle, and I think Murphy must have felt it too.
Oh Joy! Horses are going to heal me, I just know it. By riding and working with them, keeping the spirits lifted, the mind occupied, and the body fit and healthy I'll beat this thing. That's my plan.
What else? Have a few ideas for writing projects and am going to make a little time-table for myself to include: PhD (Writing!), Yoga (oh, yes! Going all out this time I am!), and riding. And doing the healing cd every night religiously before bed.
Printer still being rather fab too.
PET scan results tomorrow, and I am a bit nervous about it. I'm learning to stay in the day I'm in rather than mentally skipping ahead to the horrid bits to come, but it isn't easy. Not had such a great run this last few months with scan results, so fingers crossed, eh.
Tuesday, 8 January 2008
Am too excited!