I went out! Hurrah! I rang a friend and arranged to meet for coffee, and then realised that I was in no fit state to drive, so had to ring NeeNee to come get me. Bless her cotton socks!
I also spent a bit of cash - which I really shouldn't because I only get 3 weeks sick pay as an Associate Tutor (for 24 wks contracted work - humph!) but you know, I don't really spend that much and it did cheer me up. I got lots of meds (not pictured cos boring), lovely shoes (like Julie's! Sorry hum but couldn't resist 'em), some Lavender bath stuff to help calm and soothe etc., and some Elizabeth Arden lip balm as lips have already started cracking. The Monsoon stuff is for my girls - couldn't find any treats for me in there, but no matter - I did very well as it was!
The book is on Taoism, and is from another friend. Am getting all spiritual don't ya know - but the more I read and study, the more I realise it is a positive attitude that's going to get me through this - and all the love and stuff from everyone. And I've been thinking, when I'm well I want to do the Duke of Edinburgh on horse back across Wales for Cancer Research! That's an exciting thought. I'm also focusing on getting a horse and visualising growing old with it, with grandchildren having a sit on in the field next to the house...)
Also went to see an acupuncture practitioner, and will look more into that. Sort me Chi out and all that - them Meridian lines. At least my head is in a good place now, so the sitting down and being calm, thinking calm thoughts, and trying to heal from within is certainly having a beneficial effect!
This is lucky because the little things can get to you. Like this morning. I woke at 3 am, and went to the loo, and was awake till 6 am. Not wanting to get out of bed because the nausea would hit me too hard, I waited till 8 am to take anti-sickness tablets, drinking ginger beer. Only I got up, started heaving, and wet myself. Fabulous, thought I. Talk about reduced dignity, but I suppose we'll just have to deal with it, eh.
I did get home to find a HUGE bouquet of flowers at the front door too - thank you Ann xxx - they look gorgeous on top of the piano.
So. All in all the Chemo is not so bad, so far. I still have hair, and the shoulder pain still greatly reduced. Am on the mend - I feel it!
Writing: Oh dear. Oh well. Am on the case! I haven't forgotten! Am just not going to be too hard on myself anymore - ha ha ha!